After exam

Say no more to exams!!!
YES! Exams are over..the last paper didnt go well as usual..basically none of the papers this sem I did can be considered as good.
Really reluctant to accept the fact the 1st honour is flying away from me..
But nothing can be done.

Exam hall. 091113 5.30pm. Exams ended.

Apart from that, I'm sick now..wasn't feeling well for the past week..Started with sorethroat..n it gotten more n more serious..until last night the congestive chest cough made me feel like suffocating..T_T
I should have listened to my mum..not to go anywhere but home to get more rest..
Well, I did listen to her advice partially..
At least I went home straight after exam..did not join any group of friends for dinner or movie..Made me feel like so antisocial..huhu~

Lotsa after exam parties were carried out last night as most Monash-ians hv completed their finals.
(Sorry for those who is still in the midst of the war..*Good Luck*)
Okay. I admit I'm a disobedient daughter that go against mum's word.
Went to "Dorothea Mackellar AXP" at night. This party is actually organised by Oakleigh guys (mixture of electrical and mechatronics students) at their huge mansion..LoL..after staying here for almost a year, this is the 1st time I visited their house..
It's really like stated: "FREE FLOW of beer(Choice of Pure Blonde or Asahi) and tequila shots throughout the night". But I didnt drink a single sip. Haha!

Well, as this might be the very last chance I will see most of them..many are leaving Aussie and most of them are exchange students..so I wont see them in uni next year..this is the reason I went.
Sean Lai flew back Msia last night, Jun is going back Spore today..then one by one leaving soon..left those who are doing summer research will be staying here for summer with me..ok..at least there is still a few friends around as compared to a big group of 40-50 ppl..


Couple shirt..LoL..Sean Lai, Bye Bye~ Hmm..see u end of the year or further future
Goodbye Jun from Sunway gals, See u next year from me n Chyi XD

The night turned out well for those drinker. Apparently they enjoyed it while dancing around. N the noise acceptance level has been exceeded until the police almost joined the party..=.=!!
Hmm..I guess this is how wild youngster can go..what more it is an after exam party whereby all the stresses are meant to be released..but through too much liquor is not good..things will get out of hand..Haha..but this is life in aussie..

The photos taken at the party is not uploaded yet as the photographer still has a war to go..haha..good luck to electrical students!
I shall get enough rest and recover soon..I've a fantastic trip awaiting me starting from tomorrow..=)
Till then, take care everyone!!

Yay~ We are Frrreeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

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One more day

One more day. Just one more day of torture n I'm done.
Still feel very disappointed with my performance this semester.
Part of me is very angry abt myself when I can do so much better than what I've done.
Part of me is feeling so hopeless..and negative..
Part of me just feel like giving up and don't want to put in any more efforts.

I know..I know all these negative thoughts are inappropriate.
In a way, this is self-destruction.

Sigh. If only time can be reset and this semester can be restarted....

Feel so lost now..just wanna go home immediately..havent told mum abt my bad performance..not ready to let her down when i've not get prepared to face her disappointed tone..N I don't feel like doing the summer research anymore..
Don't even look forward for the summer break which will be coming after the last paper tomorrow.
Have lotsa plannings..but currently don't have the mood to carry out..

Hopefully, the excited feelings will pop out right after Control paper tmr.

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='(

It was a do-able paper.
Hints given were almost accurate.
Most people passed up the paper with a smile.

But me?
I tried hard to control the tears within.
I do not know why I didnt try out tat work example in text book when I've done the others.
I do not know why I missed out the square for the concentration.
Such fundamental stuffs. N I got it wrong and still dont know how did it happen.
3 papers. All badly done. One more to go. But it is so hopeless now.
Been telling people that I wanna maintain the results with 1st class honour.
N now it is all gone.
I've screwed up this semester badly. ='(

Nobody believe with how badly I've done.
N how to not worry with this failure.
I'm not smart. Never get good results becoz of myself. It was just pure luck.
I've fell down........miserably.

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Overdosed

I'll be so dead by the end of the week.

I really do not know how to survive with 3 heavy papers this week.
I'm so not ready. =(

Even the weather is standing at the opposite side of me.
It's bloody hot today. I couldn't focus even though I wanted to.
It's such an inefficient day..can I blame the weather?
I supposed it has been very inefficient right from the start of my preparation of exam.
I kept losing out to distractions one after another.

Last night I finally tried out the drink -- Mother, the energy drink.
Friends around me have been consuming it to stay awake for study/ assignment.
N I think I've sort of gotten overdosed today.
I cannot rest my mind badly even though I've tried.



I really need a piece of peaceful and focus mind immediately.
I do not have much time left.
This semester is terrible. =(

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Pre-exam fear

I'm scared I'm terrified I'm horrified.
I've a terribly bad feeling about this semester final exam..

This semester I've studied much lesser..as compared to last semester and last year..
Too much of distraction..too much of friends' bday celebrations..
Time management and self discipline are always bad when related to study..
Countless of overslept days were experienced..falling asleep in lectures..skipping lectures due to boring lectures..omg..what have I become?
Where is the Yi Mei back in the old days?
I couldn't recognise myself with all the changes..

AAAAAaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Thankful

Submitted my last assignment.
But no sense of excitement in me.
It's time to prepare for finals. Not fun at all =((

Well, I should be very thankful with my current situation.

This morning, I read HH's sms asking me to wake her up this morning..
But the first thing I realised when I stepped out of my room was SL and her house slippers still placing at the door entrance!!
There's no way that they have gone out before I woke up at 7.30am.
Then I saw HH's room is still locked.
Gosh! They didnt come home last night..

That's why I said I should be thankful.
I'm actually much luckier as compared to those chemical students taking Pulp and Paper as the optional stream.
It's such a relief that I took Nanotechnology & Materials.
Most of them never sleep, never go home last night. They were all in the computer lab rushing for their last assignment and they are still doing it. OMG!!
Same goes to Mechanical students..Some of them camp in com lab last night as well..They have 3 assignments due this week.

Take care everyone!
Don't overstress ur body..i bet all of u have overworked..
*Pat Pat* The storm will be over soon.
Jia you!

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Bad Dream

Oh my..I had a bad dream.
In the dream, the airport was terribly crowded as in everyone's trying to get away from Melbourne.
I dreamed that I was late for my flight back to Malaysia. N all the following flights were full..I couldnt go back! Wuwuwu~

Got shocked and woke up..then slept back again.
The 2nd time was a part II of the previous dream.
Ignoring that the fact I was late, I went to the check in area and hoping to have a talk with the officer and they would allow me to enter..Mind u the plane is taking off in 5 minutes time!!
Miraculously, there's another person who was in the same situation as me. N the officer actually let us in and we run all the way to the departure hall and get to board on the plane!!~

Why would I suddenly have this kind of dream and it felt so real?
Does anyone have the talent to interpret dream?
I hope this dream is not foreseeing that I will miss that flight.
I shall not be late for my flight. Must be punctual!

What a shocking dream to start my Sunday..I hope the remaining of the day would be better.
Have a nice day people!

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Week 12

Another week has gone..
Week 12 of uni is like hell..

I was so unprepared for the reaction test..
Went to the battle field knowing that I'd fail for the exam..n so it was jz as I expected..even though I've put a little hope in it..hoping it would turn out slightly better..but it didnt..it was just as bad as what I thought of..
7.5% down the drain.. T_T

Stay back at Computer Lab for design until 4am. (new record)
N was told whatever I've done was not entirely right..I've done extra work on it..Grrr~
Next day redo it..then redo again after consulting lecturer..
Computer lab for this semester is so much more packed than last semester..
N it got worse for the last few weeks..there are barely any computer available..
Monash computers are so insufficient..they should extend and purchase more computer for students' benefit!
N guess what..spending like an hour strolling around com lab n couldnt get any..my group mates decided to go Monash College to use their computers since they are having a break now..N the com lab was empty! We owned the lab until 6.30pm they closed it..XD

Basically I just left one more Process Control assignment which is due on Monday morning..N i'm done with my Year 3 internal assessment..
After that I'll have to prepare for finals..in which I've not even started any preparation about it..*No eyes to see*
Still remember during Year 1, by this time most people have finished studying and started with pass year papers..As for Year 3, it's completely different..until this point everyone is still busy completing assignments and projects..This is why I've been told by seniors that year 3 is crazily different..Now I've experienced it and so finally I understand what those seniors meant by saying that it is a lot tougher..

Last minute work wont bring u any near to good grades..
Procrastinating will drive u crazy meeting up the deadlines..
Working 24 hr around the clock..just keep working..non stop stresses coming to ur way..
Just checked my Nano journal assessment mark..not sure about what majority got..
But the mark aint satisfying..been reading so much journals..ended up with that kind of marks..not worth it at all..boo!

I still havent come out with a plan on how to study for finals..
3 papers in a week..with 2 papers in 2 days..
I really don't like this type of combination..
Stressed me up to the fullest..made me a zombie-like creature for that period @@

Finals in less than 1 month..
I don't feel like studying..
I don't want finals to come..
As much as I refused to sit for finals..another thing that I m reluctant about is Year 4..I really don't wish to enter my final year..
I don't think I'm ready for it..seeing how those seniors suffer for final year design project..it's really sth that i dislike n i cannot handle..

I wish I've the talent to freeze time..
Can anyone teach me how to freeze time like what Hiro Nakamura did in Hero?

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Chosen Path

Feeling quite emotionless right now..or is it moodless?
I'm at a point..looking back @ the past n foreseeing the future..
Are these all I ever wanted?

All the while I kept telling everyone that it is my dream to study in Australia.
Yes. My dream has come true after I persisted for so long.
I'm not as lucky as some people who are being forced to study overseas by parents.
To me, they are lucky. Because they have the golden opportunity that I've ever wanted to taste the study life in overseas right after Form 5.

I've never blamed where I come from.
In fact I'm grateful that I've made it this far.
At least my dream is fulfilled.

However, thinking about next year..
A lot of friends who are on exchanging will not be around..
I'll be celebrating my first ever Chinese New Year alone on this piece of land which is so called the most densely populated state in Australia, without my family and close friends..
Will I be able to withstand it?
Up until before tonight, I thought I could.

But after the conversation with this bunch of lovely friends, I know I will miss each n everyone of them dearly next year as well as all the fun they are planning ahead.
The friendship has been bonded strongly for almost 3 years or less.
When u r away from home, u will tend to mix more with friends..not to say tend to but that is what u can seek for after family..
For my case this is exactly true..especially when I was in Sunway n now in Clayton.
It would be hard to adapt in their absence.

Well, this is my chosen path.
I should proceed and see what is awaiting for me on the following journey.

To those who are concerned, I just wanna say that U guys have been a great great friends to me..I'm truly blessed to get to know all of u..
I'll definitely miss u people.
What should be done is..cherish all the great moments together..n live no regrets!
Awww~ I need a hug now ><




Sorry for this solemn post, right now i just feel so weak to be alone.
Don't worry. I will be fine.
Still need to prepare for the 7.5% test in which I've barely started.
Sigh. Just feel like screwing it!

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An hour is lost..

This is so so crazy..i slept from 4am to 5pm..><
Still cannot get over the fact that I actually slept for freaking long when I've so much dateline to deal with..
Indeed I've played to the fullest for my mid sem break.Even the very last day I spent it on sleeping =.=
Ahhhh..So much work to do, but so little time..
Moreover, due to day light saving, my timeline is one hour ahead..meaning I've lost an hour..n i m now 3 hours apart from Malaysia time..
Gosh...someone please save me..I'm so freakout out!!
Hopefully I've the strength to complete all my tasks in time..
Gonna burn all the possible midnight oil..Wuwuwu~

*Add on*
I've been having too much fun..n still hoping to get more fun..
Oh my..Wake up n Come back to reality please..

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