39 degree
>> Wednesday, December 16, 2009
My gosh~
It's 39 degree Celsius right now.
It will be good if I've a car here.
I DO NOT like the heat, feel like being oven-ed. Huhu~
A Decision
>> Friday, December 11, 2009
To stay or to go...
This question has been bothering him for a long time.
He has decided finally.
My intuition was correct.
He is going back for good.
Time remaining is about 2 months.
I do not know how to response even though it is as predicted.
Deep down there still remains some hopeful thoughts.
I shall learn to accept the fact and cry no more.
Sorry for what I've said or done.
I'm really sorry.
Summer Research
>> Tuesday, December 08, 2009
I shall talk about my research in this post.
My research topic is about characterization of nanofibre non-woven properties.
In a simple context, it is all about making paper sheets from various nanofibres and finding out its structural properties as well as fibre strength in nano or micron scale.
OMG~ By typing the above paragraph, I can sense the dullness in this topic.
Why on Earth did I pick this as my first priority? To be honest, I submitted the application form like few days after it was released without even knowing most of the supervisors available. It's not until the second half of the semester only I realised what is done by those taking pulp and paper as their elective. But but, by that time, I wasn't even aware of what did I put for my preference and I never know that I'll obtain my 1st preference or I'd even obtain this summer vacation scholarship.
Even though we are allowed to submit the application form more than once and they will only consider the latest online form that we submit, but you have to understand how troublesome is it to fill up the form. There're lots of things to fill in and I bet nobody would love to do it twice. *Big SIGH*
If I were to pick it again I will switch my second preference to the first. I guess I won't mind doing something regarding process control under Karen. Wonder who is dealing with that topic..it might be a bit tough but who cares..the summer vacation is all about learning stuffs, getting paid without any allocation of marks. *REGRETFUL*
There are only 2 reasons I was attracted to sign up the summer vacation.
No. 1 is the pay of AUD480 per week. Seems a lot huh?
But to think twice, if u r able to get any part time job even working as cleaning lady, u might be able to earn more than tat!!
The No. 2 reason would be this experience will look good on my resume and might help slightly for my research project next year.
If it wasn't for that 2 reasons above, I'd certainly have gone home rather than suffering the 9 to 5 office hour routinely. I've suffered enough last year when doing my internship in Simpang Ampat. T_T
Usually, research work is flexible like my other friends. Only me and my research partner need to suffer on the FIX working hour. Sien dou sei aaaaa...
Some of my friends can even work from home and still getting paid!
Some of their supervisors went conference and were away from uni, which mean they are sort of like on holidays as well..for ~1 month!!! *SCREAMS*
ARGH!! Unfair UNfair UNFAIR!!!!
It's only the 3rd week..N I've 9 more weeks to go...............
Time creeps by slowly..this tortoise speed is really giving me a great pain. =/
Can't wait for next Friday, I'll be flying home on a jet plane.
But sadly, it's only for 2 weeks due to Uni closing down for xmas and new year break.
How pathetic my summer break is!
I'm gonna treat my 2 weeks in Malaysia as colourful as possible..
So if there's any interesting plan within that period PLEASE notify me as well!!
I'm saved
>> Thursday, December 03, 2009
Hmmm..the time of scaring myself to death is up!
Results are out..N I'm saved. Officially done with Year 3 Chem Engineering!!!
I didn't plan to check results tonight.
N I didnt expect to have people checking results during dinner just now. The dinner was supposed to be a farewell meal for Andrew and Matthew who are flying back Msia tomorrow. Their action really made me anxious to the max!
However, this semester is not really well done. But the damage has been minimized, there is no need to retake any subject.
Feeling glad on one hand as it is better than expected, but somehow quite disappointed with my performance this semester.
I just need to learn to be able to juggle between lots of things.
As usual, I'm telling myself to do better next semester. Let's just hope that this thought would not just slip through my mind AGAIN!
Whatever that is done, is done.
Shall look forward for tomorrow and prepare for the future!
Day before judgement day
>> Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Expecting the worst to come...
Results will be released officially on Fri and unofficially on thurs which is tomorrow!!
Sigh.
Mood is pretty bad.
I know how badly I've done even though friends around have faith in me.
I'm sorry that I'll let you all down.
Shall say no more.
Everyone is eager to go somewhere else other than home tomorrow to run away from reality.
But I just feel like staying at home,being alone.
It is better to be alone when nobody can feel how you feel like.
They think everything will be alright, but you know it would not be.
Sad Sad Night
>> Thursday, November 26, 2009
Sorry for the lack of updates after exam..
Been quite occupied with trips, party and the latest trend--farewell dinner.
Airport season is here again..
But this time the gloomy feeling is by far the heaviest..
It is not about people leaving Malaysia..but going back Malaysia..
N many of them are on exchange program and thus they are not coming back to Aussie after the summer..moreover for some, I might not even see them anymore in the near future..
Imagine that we are studying at different campuses (Sunway and Clayton) for our final year. Gonna graduate at different location and time.
After graduation, the future is filled with infinite uncertainties.
Some might continue with master, post grad studies, working at different corner of the world.
It'd be very difficult to gather everyone by then.
Well, there is still a small hope in me that we will still meet once again if there are good effort and strong bond of friendship between each
#I got a feeling..
That tonight is gonna be a sad night..
That tonight is gonna be a sad sad night~ Wuwuwu~#
A week ago I was still on a trip with this bunch of friends crabbing (catching crabs) at Lakes Entrance..
A week later most of them are going back and some even have gone home..
Last week I went on a Ballarat-Grampians-Lake Entrance trip.
Here are a few selected photos from thousands of them..consequences of having 2 DSLRs and 1 semi pro camera during a trip. My compact camera seems to be very lousy in this case. *sigh*
Joyful and colourful =))
The first one to leave from my house is Chin Ying. She has just left 2 days ago but she is coming back next year =)) My the-only-housemate next year probably..T_T
I've made quite a number of good friends in Aus..especially those I knew them merely by name back in Sunway but later on in Australia, we've turned out to be close friends..n they are leaving tonight..I felt so sad after the farewell dinner..
Perhaps it's a good thing that Melbourne airport is so far away from the place I stay. Else if, I'd be a crying baby at the airport..Sudden rush of tears almost came out from my eyes the moment I reached home..*Sob sob*
So anticipated for the food trip one month later..n that would probably be the very last time I'll see those exchange people in near future..
N the very last thing I wanna mention here is..
I wanna go home right now right now Now NOw NOW!!
I got no interest in the research topic I'm dealing with..
It's getting late..need to wake up early to work..shall continue with this topic next time..
Good night peeps! Read more...
After exam
>> Saturday, November 14, 2009
Say no more to exams!!!
YES! Exams are over..the last paper didnt go well as usual..basically none of the papers this sem I did can be considered as good.
Really reluctant to accept the fact the 1st honour is flying away from me..
But nothing can be done.
Exam hall. 091113 5.30pm. Exams ended.
Apart from that, I'm sick now..wasn't feeling well for the past week..Started with sorethroat..n it gotten more n more serious..until last night the congestive chest cough made me feel like suffocating..T_T
I should have listened to my mum..not to go anywhere but home to get more rest..
Well, I did listen to her advice partially..
At least I went home straight after exam..did not join any group of friends for dinner or movie..Made me feel like so antisocial..huhu~
Lotsa after exam parties were carried out last night as most Monash-ians hv completed their finals.
(Sorry for those who is still in the midst of the war..*Good Luck*)
Okay. I admit I'm a disobedient daughter that go against mum's word.
Went to "Dorothea Mackellar AXP" at night. This party is actually organised by Oakleigh guys (mixture of electrical and mechatronics students) at their huge mansion..LoL..after staying here for almost a year, this is the 1st time I visited their house..
It's really like stated: "FREE FLOW of beer(Choice of Pure Blonde or Asahi) and tequila shots throughout the night". But I didnt drink a single sip. Haha!
Well, as this might be the very last chance I will see most of them..many are leaving Aussie and most of them are exchange students..so I wont see them in uni next year..this is the reason I went.
Sean Lai flew back Msia last night, Jun is going back Spore today..then one by one leaving soon..left those who are doing summer research will be staying here for summer with me..ok..at least there is still a few friends around as compared to a big group of 40-50 ppl..
Couple shirt..LoL..Sean Lai, Bye Bye~ Hmm..see u end of the year or further future
Goodbye Jun from Sunway gals, See u next year from me n Chyi XD
The night turned out well for those drinker. Apparently they enjoyed it while dancing around. N the noise acceptance level has been exceeded until the police almost joined the party..=.=!!
Hmm..I guess this is how wild youngster can go..what more it is an after exam party whereby all the stresses are meant to be released..but through too much liquor is not good..things will get out of hand..Haha..but this is life in aussie..
The photos taken at the party is not uploaded yet as the photographer still has a war to go..haha..good luck to electrical students!
I shall get enough rest and recover soon..I've a fantastic trip awaiting me starting from tomorrow..=)
Till then, take care everyone!!
Yay~ We are Frrreeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
One more day
>> Thursday, November 12, 2009
One more day. Just one more day of torture n I'm done.
Still feel very disappointed with my performance this semester.
Part of me is very angry abt myself when I can do so much better than what I've done.
Part of me is feeling so hopeless..and negative..
Part of me just feel like giving up and don't want to put in any more efforts.
I know..I know all these negative thoughts are inappropriate.
In a way, this is self-destruction.
Sigh. If only time can be reset and this semester can be restarted....
Feel so lost now..just wanna go home immediately..havent told mum abt my bad performance..not ready to let her down when i've not get prepared to face her disappointed tone..N I don't feel like doing the summer research anymore..
Don't even look forward for the summer break which will be coming after the last paper tomorrow.
Have lotsa plannings..but currently don't have the mood to carry out..
Hopefully, the excited feelings will pop out right after Control paper tmr.
='(
>> Wednesday, November 11, 2009
It was a do-able paper.
Hints given were almost accurate.
Most people passed up the paper with a smile.
But me?
I tried hard to control the tears within.
I do not know why I didnt try out tat work example in text book when I've done the others.
I do not know why I missed out the square for the concentration.
Such fundamental stuffs. N I got it wrong and still dont know how did it happen.
3 papers. All badly done. One more to go. But it is so hopeless now.
Been telling people that I wanna maintain the results with 1st class honour.
N now it is all gone.
I've screwed up this semester badly. ='(
Nobody believe with how badly I've done.
N how to not worry with this failure.
I'm not smart. Never get good results becoz of myself. It was just pure luck.
I've fell down........miserably.
Overdosed
>> Sunday, November 08, 2009
I'll be so dead by the end of the week.
I really do not know how to survive with 3 heavy papers this week.
I'm so not ready. =(
Even the weather is standing at the opposite side of me.
It's bloody hot today. I couldn't focus even though I wanted to.
It's such an inefficient day..can I blame the weather?
I supposed it has been very inefficient right from the start of my preparation of exam.
I kept losing out to distractions one after another.
Last night I finally tried out the drink -- Mother, the energy drink.
Friends around me have been consuming it to stay awake for study/ assignment.
N I think I've sort of gotten overdosed today.
I cannot rest my mind badly even though I've tried.
I really need a piece of peaceful and focus mind immediately.
I do not have much time left.
This semester is terrible. =(
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